Ok so today I have the day off and got everything done that I needed to since days off seem so few lately. Now bordom sets in and so I stop to watch some anime and movies and start to think that cocky charasmatic men- no matter what they look like, look better than the good looking, but boring men that tend to be of abundance in so many things. It is hard to explain but I get attracted to characters so often if I am attracted to them physically and I tend to go for the cocky and charasmatic but with heart and honor. Not the cute egomaniacs, but the ones that don't care what anyone else thinks. Maybe cocky isnt the word-maybe confident is more appropriate-confidence with no need to impress. It seems that my characters in RPG's are always attracted to that type, but with mine always being smart asses it makes the hookup even more dynamic. It is funny that in interests and characters, I can be the cold killer who doesn't care what anyone thinks, but in real life I unfortunately have empathy. I was thinking about some of my characters and the one thing that they all have in common is they are loners with no family that usually kill for money. That is my alter ego because in real life, since I do have empathy, I see the good in most people and can't go for the jugular as much as I wish I could. I am still a loner, but have a mom and sisters and husband, so I can't quite break away from caring. If I had no family, maybe then in an alternate universe, I wouldnt have empathy and would be a cold blooded mercinary. It is funny how games and anime can fill that need since you can emerse yourself in what you wish you were as oppossed to what you really are.